Do you know your worth?

So I decided to take a break from writing this essay, it's killing me, I just keep on having some brain farts, POOF! anyways I decided to open my bible and read a little bit of today's journal and it encouraged me so much.

"But God even knows how many hairs you have on your head. Don't be afraid. You are WORTH much more than many sparrows." -Luke 12:7
"Look at the birds. They don't plant or harvest, they don't have storerooms or barns, but God feeds them. And You are WORTH much more than birds." -Luke 12:25

In one chapter Jesus tells us how valuable you and I are to God. We are so valuable that he had to mention it twice. I wondered why? maybe because He knew we wouldn't feel worthy or valuable at times. Well I'll I can come up with is what goes on in my personal life and maybe it relates to yours. I sometimes have the hardest time feeling loved, feeling worthy, feeling valuable. I mean, I know that one of God's main characteristics is love but I sometimes wonder how can my sinful self look beautiful to God? there is no way. I struggle with this even now, as a saved christian. It's funny because it's in my most intimate time with God that I recall all of my mess ups, screw ups, and all my other junk. I heard this one pastor preach on the radio and he said "The hardest part about prayer is allowing God to love you." I was rocked by that statement. Because it finally clicked that in my most private time where I get to love on Jesus, I just can't seem to allow him to love me because I'm to stuck looking at myself, my imperfections, and my defects but I believe with all of my heart that in my quiet time that is when God says "You are fearfully and wonderfully made" "You are WORTH much more than birds, You are WORTH much more than anything"

Sunday Night REwind

• Masters Commission is BACK!!
• Masters had there opening service, and they all brought it!
• The Worship was TIGHT, Samson lead the worship team, dang he's grown up so much.
• Like I mentioned on Fridays blog, this might be the DREAM TEAM of MC's
• P. Nick brought the word as he spoke about Labels
• Judeges 6--> Gideon: What labels have people placed on you? but what has God labeled you? Champion, Overcomer, Forgiven One, Child, Loved One!!
• The Human Video was GREAT! good job Angie & James, YOU made history ;)
• Prayer time in the Alter was just what I needed. Sometimes we give so much but we all need time to re-fill and re-fuel.
• Got to kick it with Manda as we headed out to SF
• My Sister preached, she did more of a teaching but she did good, she preaches like my dad, haha :)
• Went out to eat as a family, including Amanda.
• Ok i'm getting ready for Bed Gnite everyone.
  

The Fuse

Every Friday the FUSE keeps on getting better and better! Masters Commission is BACK, and they are back on a mission. I have never seen such a powerful group like the one that was displayed tonight, from worship to serving and to just having fun, they look like the dream team. Anyways ever since P. Nick received those 3 simple words "Never the same" the FUSE has just been that, it has never been the same. So today not only did worship have a twist but also the preaching. P. Nick got a night just to receive and Troy had a chance to deliver the word, and he did just that, he DELIVERED! Troy spoke a brief but powerful message encouraging everyone to GIVE UP BUT DON'T QUIT! yes you heard it right, give up. See there is a difference between giving up and quitting, anyone can quit but it takes a lot give up, especially give up our lives. We have to learn to give up our lives to God so God can give us true life.

Guys vs. Men

I'm here in the library and just finished reading this article in our book, which to let you know was funny but fairly true. This article is called "Guys vs. Men" by Dave Barry. For me it was funny to read because it basically explained who I am, a GUY! So for those of you who are trying to figure out what I mean, let me show you how Barry portrays 4 themes in this battle of indifference between Guys and Men.

1. Guys Like Neat Stuff
   If you're a guy or you've been around guys you know what I mean! whether it's the latest gadget, car, or video game system guys want it and want it now. I don't know about you but i'm guilty for this one. He explains how he just bought the top of the line computer jam packed with power but all he really does with it is stare and type a couple of words. What can we say other than "Boys will love toys!"
2. Guys Like A Really Pointless Challenge
   "Man if that was me I would of done it better!" I mean who doesn't like a challenge, I know I do. Guys it's just built inside of us to want to conquer, doesn't the bible say that we have been given dominion? (haha) Anyways something inside of us GUYS is wired for competition whether it's in a championship football game or fantasy football we all live for that moment in the light, basically bragging rights.
   
3. Guys Do Not Have A Rigid & Well-Defined Moral Code
   The article says "Guys are aware of the rules of moral behavior, but they have trouble keeping these rules in the forefronts of their minds at certain times, especially the present." This reminded me about what Troy spoke about last Sunday, remember we try to get as close to the line without crossing it? I know I have been there both right in front of the line and past the line. Remember rules were meant to be broken, but not standards!
4. Guys Are Not Great At Communicating Their Intimate Feelings, Assuming They Have Any
   If you're a woman, you probably know what I'm talking about. If it wasn't for my relationship with Amanda I would have never known that I have a communication deficiency, don't believe me just ask her, haha, ok ok I'm not that bad but it is something that I need to work at. Here is a common conversation:
   A- "How was your day?"
   S- "Good, how bout yours?"
   A-"Ummm well first I brushed my teeth, did my hair, got stuck in traffic, saw a bird fly over my head, made it to school, no parking, felt sad that you didnt call...".
   Guys already have the hardest time communicating, you add feelings to that and we are like a deer in headlights!